Sunday, September 5, 2010

Guardian Angel

I am always with you. I was there from the time you were born. I stood in the delivery room, staring down at you before you could even open your eyes to see me. Your parents, relatives, and doctors couldn't see me there, in the corner, watching you with cloudy eyes, but I was there from the time you were born.

And I followed you home.

I was with you always, your constant companion. You played with your toys alone while I stared from all angles in nearby mirrors, my matted, clotted hair with oily sweat that hung off my dented forehead like glue. I was always your constant companion, drifting behind your mother's car on your ride to preschool. You were alone in the bathroom, but I was on the other side of the door, wind whistling through the bruised hole in my throat, my arms twisted and hanging in their sockets as I stood, hunched on the other side of the shower curtain. I wait and follow you. I follow and drift behind you.

I'm not seen. I'm almost not there in light. You never saw me that morning as I sat across you from the breakfast table, a shiny red clot hanging from an empty tooth socket as I gaped grotesquely at you. I wonder sometimes if you know I'm there. I think you are away, but you'll never understand just how close I am.

I spend hours of your day doing nothing more than breathing in your ear.

Breathing - gagging, really.

I crave to be close to you, to always wrap my crippled arms around your neck. I lie near you every single night, cloudy eyes staring at your ceiling, underneath your bed, at your sleeping face in the dark.

Yes, you caught me staring occasionally. Your parents came running down to your room one night when you screamed. You were just beginning to talk, so you were only able to cry out, "Man! Man in my room!" You thought you'd never forget the sight of me, with my collapsed jaw hanging to my chest, swinging back and forth. I sank back into your closet and your mother was unable to see me, though you pointed and pointed and pointed. You thought you'd never forget when they left that same night. You saw the closet door crack so softly and me crawling across the floor to your bed on all fours, stumbling in jerking movements as I pushed myself under your bed on disjointed limbs.

You learned a new word for me: boogeyman. I'm not quite the monster you thought I was. I'm just waiting and following you always, touching your face with my knotted fingers as you sleep.

You’ll see me again soon. Any day now, I’m coming, blunt and brutal. One day you’ll walk across the road and – I believe I’ll plow into you with loud roar and a screech.

You rolling on the pavement, rolling under wheels, blunt force, metal fenders, and my fingers touching your face again and again.

As you stare up from the cold pavement with cloudy eyes; your matted, clotted hair hanging in your face and your jaw unhinged and swinging to your chest.

You’ll see me approaching.

No one else will see me. You will stare past them into my eyes and I’ll leer down at you. For the first time in our life, something like a smile will come over my face. You’ll swear you’re looking into a mirror as clotted red bubbles from our mouths.

I’ll lean down, past the doctors and the oogling people and pick you up in my crooked arms. Our faces will touch. My wings will unfurl. And then you’ll have to follow me.

And I am always with you.

Your guardian angel.

18 comments:

  1. One word: Creepy

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  2. Another word: Sweet!

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  3. Possible word: SnorglBorgl!

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  4. Fith word: it scares me. I see my angel, but he scares me before I can tell who it is.

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  5. So... Our guardian angels our just ourselves at our points of death?

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  6. No, the boogyman we see in our closet/mirror/under the bed/etc. is our Guardian Angel.

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  7. Creepy.. but i've also find this story sorta touching in a way..

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  8. Me too. Anyway, I think I am my guardian angel, or my guardian angel appears in my reflex in the mirror, 'cause when I look in the mirror I feel a presence, and when I look at it in the dark this feeling increases and I feel positive and Ngative energy flowing around me.

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  9. Shut up xXxG4M3RxXx.

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  10. So last Halloween when that skelington that popped out of my airing cupboard while I was having a dump.... that was my guardian angel, then?

    Because it looked an awful lot like my uncle Steven with a mask on but no trousers.

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  11. It's a Guardian Angel, but it's also Death. I suppose Death stays with people all their lives, and Death looks like the person at the point of their dying, hence the line about mirrors. The whole thing about the Angel carrying you in its arms is Death taking you. Not creepy, really, but definitely not touching.

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  12. I think i almost cried for some reason.(Turns around for some reason) "OH SHIT!"

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  13. The things i do for some reason.

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  14. PLEASE DON'T READ THIS.YOU WILL BE KISSED ON THE NEAREST FRIDAY BY THE LOVER OF UR LIFE.NOW YOU'VE STARTED READING THIS.DON'T STOP.THIS IS FREAKY.
    1)say your name 10 times.
    2)say your moms name 5 times.
    3)say your crush's name 3 times.
    4)PASTE THIS TO FOUR OTHER QUIZZES.IF YOU DO THIS.
    YOUR CRUSH WILL KISS YOU ON THE NEAREST..........................FRIDAY.BUT.
    IF YOU READ THIS AND DOn't PASTE IT YOU WILL HAVE BAD.
    LUCK THEN YOU WILL HAVE VERY BAD LUCK.SEND THIS TO FIVE.
    QUIZZES IN 143 MINUTES.WHEN YOU'RE DONE PRESS F6.
    AND YOUR CRUSH'S NAME WILL APPEAR IN BIG LETTERS ON.
    THE SCREEN.THIS IS SO FREAKY BECAUSE IT ACTUALLY WORKS.

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    1. ok I try it but it did not work

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  15. PLEASE DON'T READ THIS.YOU WILL BE KISSED ON THE NEAREST FRIDAY BY THE LOVER OF UR LIFE.NOW YOU'VE STARTED READING THIS.DON'T STOP.THIS IS FREAKY.
    1)say your name 10 times.
    2)say your moms name 5 times.
    3)say your crush's name 3 times.
    4)PASTE THIS TO FOUR OTHER QUIZZES.IF YOU DO THIS.
    YOUR CRUSH WILL KISS YOU ON THE NEAREST..........................FRIDAY.BUT.
    IF YOU READ THIS AND DOn't PASTE IT YOU WILL HAVE BAD.
    LUCK THEN YOU WILL HAVE VERY BAD LUCK.SEND THIS TO FIVE.
    QUIZZES IN 143 MINUTES.WHEN YOU'RE DONE PRESS F6.
    AND YOUR CRUSH'S NAME WILL APPEAR IN BIG LETTERS ON.
    THE SCREEN.THIS IS SO FREAKY BECAUSE IT ACTUALLY WORKS.

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    1. Well shit. I'm on a phone. No F6 button.

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